Sunday, December 06, 2009

December 6, 2009

Today marks two years since we said hello and good-bye to Joshua. The title of the devotional in My Utmost for His Highest today is "Rainbow in the Cloud." That phrase I think sums up well the way I feel about losing him. Losing a baby is certainly a dark cloud to walk through, definitely the biggest one we've been under thus far. And while I'm still not at the place where I feel like I have many answers, I do see how God blessed us, continues to bless us, and how he's really walked with us over these two years. I see him in ways that I truly don't think would be possible if not for the loss of Joshua. For those revelations I'm truly thankful, and I see them as the rainbow in a dark place. It doesn't take away the dark place, but it brings light. And hope.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

1 comment:

Amelia said...

Ashley, we're thinking about you guys and sending love and talking to Joshua today. Your post made me think of a quote that is pretty famous, but I first came across it on the wall of Ghandi's Ashram and it has stuck with me: "The light from one lamp can expel even the deepest darkness" (something to that effect). Although the implications are slightly different, it does make me pause to think about the contrast between what we consider light and darkness in our lives and reminds me that we always have a choice to be a bright spot, and in doing so can shine light for another. We're thinking of you and love ya'll so much!